I love being alone. I'm good at it too. Not only does it feel like my default state of being, I also genuinely enjoy it and often look forward to it when I'm with other people. But lately, I've been feeling lonely more often. And it's a particular type of loneliness: romantic loneliness. I feel … Continue reading A specific kind of loneliness
I know I said it already, but this time I promise, it's the last one. Even though I'm not very good at conclusions (ask my thesis supervisor), I did want to write a fitting concluding chapter to this story. And I wanted to thank you all, all 41 of you, strangers that I'll probably never … Continue reading Day 510: The End
So it's been a week since I met up with my ex and I needed a little time to process everything. But for me, writing is always a part of processing, so here goes. To be honest, it was fun! It was good to see him, talk to him, be in his presence. I dare … Continue reading Day 447: Test Passed
I promised I'd write again on the one-year-after-the-break-up anniversary, and I am a woman of my word, so here goes. We've officially come full circle. And I mean that in the most literal sense. I started dating my ex on October the 26th in 2017. We broke up October the 26th in 2019. And now … Continue reading Day 365: Happy Anniversary
Just for the fun of it, I decided to write an appreciation/roast post. How'd you like my pun? 😀 Because I thought it was hilarious. Anyways, this post is not meant to insult or, alternatively, to glorify. Its sole purpose is reflection. As miss Grande so wisely said: "Thank you, next." Appreciation Ex #1 Thank … Continue reading Bonus post: App-roast-eation
Could it be true? Dare I believe it? I think so. I am over him. Wow, that feels amazing to write. And boy, am I proud of myself for going through that gruesome process of a break-up. A few weeks ago I had an intense talk with a good friend of mine. At times she … Continue reading Day 243: I think it’s over
Well, we did it! We've hit the half year broken up mark! Yes, we. I feel like you're with me on this journey. Those of you I know and those I don't. Thanks for making it so far with me. We actually passed this little anniversary a while ago, but I still wanted to acknowledge … Continue reading Day 194: Circles, squares and puzzle pieces
Recently one of my best friends and I did a High School Musical marathon. Great movies, probably because it's 90% nostalgia, but still. One thing I noticed for the first time in the second movie is what great standards Gabriella has. I know, it's High School Musical, but hear me out. At first when she … Continue reading Day 179: Standards
A few days ago I wrote my fifth letter for my ex. We've been broken up for 5 months now. As I was writing I noticed my tone was becoming slightly angry. It started off by irritation about how I'm still so trapped in not being able to forget him, but at a certain point … Continue reading Day 157: More revelations
Long time no write. I guess I had to process what I wrote about in my last post. It impacted me more than I let on, and even admitted to myself. But I think I'm okay with it now. I even texted him again to ask if we could talk in person soon. I've been … Continue reading Day 120: Still struggling
Tea Time With Amber 