So lately I kind of felt like I've been sleepwalking through my own life. Sure, I go out with friends, have deep and meaningful relationships with them, I try to get out of my room as much as possible, I've taken up new hobbies, I even take myself on dates sometimes. But the feeling of … Continue reading Day 71: New project
Tag: heartbreak
Day 57: Exhausted
Last week was absolute shit. Seriously, fuck last week. I know normally I'm always fairly positive, but there is little positive to say about last week. Sure, there were some highlights, but overall it was really bad. And I figured, that is also something worth mentioning. I pride myself on trying to be positive and … Continue reading Day 57: Exhausted
Day 51: Blessing in disguise
The last two weeks I have been thinking about getting back together with him. I talked about it with a few friends and mostly with my Dad. He said I should follow my heart. That love and relationships aren't based on logic, but on feelings. He said that me and my ex are both special … Continue reading Day 51: Blessing in disguise
Day 42: Definitely not letting go
Sometimes I wish I wasn't such an open book, you know? Sometimes I wish I could just secretly start seeing him again. To feel his fingers on my skin once more. To have his compliments lift me up. Nobody would have to know. I'd sneak him in and out of here. Or just only meet … Continue reading Day 42: Definitely not letting go
Day 38: Starting to let go
Last Thursday I performed at an Open Mic. Earlier I had come to the conclusion I should go outside more often. I've been stuck in my room for the most part of last month, partly because of my thesis, partly because I usually prefer my own company to that of others. But as easy as … Continue reading Day 38: Starting to let go
Day 31: Overwhelming sadness
I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I feel like myself again. The bad news is that I feel like a total wreck. My sadness is finally at the level I expected it to be. When I didn't cry at even the biggest triggers a few weeks ago, now I … Continue reading Day 31: Overwhelming sadness
Day 24: Damn, I miss him
Well, finally. It started to kick in. I've been thinking more about him the last couple of days. I was even able to cry again. Something I have been trying to get myself to do for a while but I was just not physically able to. So I'm not emotionally blocked anymore. Honestly, it was … Continue reading Day 24: Damn, I miss him
Day 17: Am I still me?
Yesterday I called my sister and told her I'm still doing fine and that I feel confused about that. She said I sounded like that's just how it is. She thinks it's not coming later, and that maybe I started accepting this situation earlier than when we broke up. That could be true. I said … Continue reading Day 17: Am I still me?
Day 13: Maybe I’m in denial?
People say there are five stages of grief. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. They also say you don't have to go through each stage chronologically, or even experience all of them, or that you can go back and forth. But I'm fairly certain there's some truth to it. I can definitely recognise some of them … Continue reading Day 13: Maybe I’m in denial?
Tea Time With Amber 