I love being alone. I'm good at it too. Not only does it feel like my default state of being, I also genuinely enjoy it and often look forward to it when I'm with other people. But lately, I've been feeling lonely more often. And it's a particular type of loneliness: romantic loneliness. I feel … Continue reading A specific kind of loneliness
These days we can distract ourselves from our own feelings more easily than ever. But we are human. If we push them away they will only start screaming for our attention louder. And while that might make sense in theory, it can be really hard to actually sit with negative emotions. In this post we're exploring how you can take care of yourself on an emotional level.
I promised I'd write again on the one-year-after-the-break-up anniversary, and I am a woman of my word, so here goes. We've officially come full circle. And I mean that in the most literal sense. I started dating my ex on October the 26th in 2017. We broke up October the 26th in 2019. And now … Continue reading Day 365: Happy Anniversary
A few days ago I wrote my fifth letter for my ex. We've been broken up for 5 months now. As I was writing I noticed my tone was becoming slightly angry. It started off by irritation about how I'm still so trapped in not being able to forget him, but at a certain point … Continue reading Day 157: More revelations
As happens when you're going through a break up, I've been having some epiphanies lately. I came across a podcast on which advice was asked for getting over someone you still like or maybe even still love. A few things were mentioned and since every person is differently wired, it would make sense that not … Continue reading Day 93: Breaking free
We've officially been broken up longer than the last time. And I'm trying to start letting go of the hope we will get back together. Since my last post, things didn't go as smoothly as I wanted them to. Of course they didn't, you can't just force your thoughts and feelings to be a certain … Continue reading Day 80: Let’s bring some psychology into this
So lately I kind of felt like I've been sleepwalking through my own life. Sure, I go out with friends, have deep and meaningful relationships with them, I try to get out of my room as much as possible, I've taken up new hobbies, I even take myself on dates sometimes. But the feeling of … Continue reading Day 71: New project
Last week was absolute shit. Seriously, fuck last week. I know normally I'm always fairly positive, but there is little positive to say about last week. Sure, there were some highlights, but overall it was really bad. And I figured, that is also something worth mentioning. I pride myself on trying to be positive and … Continue reading Day 57: Exhausted
I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I feel like myself again. The bad news is that I feel like a total wreck. My sadness is finally at the level I expected it to be. When I didn't cry at even the biggest triggers a few weeks ago, now I … Continue reading Day 31: Overwhelming sadness
Well, finally. It started to kick in. I've been thinking more about him the last couple of days. I was even able to cry again. Something I have been trying to get myself to do for a while but I was just not physically able to. So I'm not emotionally blocked anymore. Honestly, it was … Continue reading Day 24: Damn, I miss him
Tea Time With Amber 